Goodbye, 2014. Hello, 2015!

Writer's block. That's precisely what I struggle with now. I have been contemplating since this morning on what to write today. My mind seems to be on holiday mode as I can't come up with any idea for my last post for the year. And I thought ideas would just start to pour in when I start. I guess wrong.

Just when I thought initially that this year is going to be "my year". Everything was going too well accordingly at first: great opportunies, wonderful experiences, and amazing people. But, as they say, we have to expect the unexpected. We can not be ecstatic all the time. We need to experience struggles and get over it. We have to stumble and stand up. Ergo, I faced problems after problems. Tough and rough year, I can say. Challenges seemed to be endless. My self esteem worsen, my emotions were all jumbled up that I almost gave up. I lost people along the way, as well as good opportunities and equally great experiences.

2014 indeed has been one hell of a roller-coaster ride for me. I had a lot of realizations as I go through the bumpy roads of my life. Now, as we all bid farewell to this unpredictable year, I would like to express my sincerest gratitude to those people who helped me survive this year. To my dearest and real friends who are and still patiently listen to my constant whines on how life suck big time, thank you!! I know I still have a big lump in my throat now, yet, I am confident that I will surpass all these challenges because God is good and He won't let me suffer for a long time.

I know... It's going to be a great year. I can hear the noises outside signalling that another year is about to unfold. Another page of our lives is about to start. Goodbye 2014 memories!! Welcome 2015!!!

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Goodbye, 2014. Hello, 2015!

Writer's block. That's precisely what I struggle with now. I have been contemplating since this morning on what to write today. My mind seems to be on holiday mode as I can't come up with any idea for my last post for the year. And I thought ideas would just start to pour in when I start. I guess wrong.

Just when I thought initially that this year is going to be "my year". Everything was going too well accordingly at first: great opportunies, wonderful experiences, and amazing people. But, as they say, we have to expect the unexpected. We can not be ecstatic all the time. We need to experience struggles and get over it. We have to stumble and stand up. Ergo, I faced problems after problems. Challenges seemed to be endless. My self esteem worsen, my emotions were all jumbled up that I almost gave up. I lost people along the way, as well as good opportunities and equally great experiences.

2014 indeed has been one hell of a roller-coaster ride for me. I had a lot of realizations as I go through the bumpy roads of my life. Now, as we all bid farewell to this unpredictable year, I would like to express my sincerest gratitude to those people who helped me survive this year. To my dearest and real friends who are and still patiently listen to my constant whines on how life suck big time, thank you!! I know I still have a big lump in my throat now, yet, I am confident that I will surpass all these challenges because God is good and He won't let me suffer for a long time.

I know... It's going to be a great year. I can hear the noises outside signalling that another year is about to unfold. Another page of our lives is about to start. Goodbye 2014 memories!! Welcome 2015!!!

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Early Morning Thoughts

I woke up really early today for two reasons: I am ultimately bored for I am out of the office for four days (at the same time being under the weather these past few days) and I want to go to work early to prepare for my new Culture and Communications Training class.

What is it with waking up early or staying late at night that leaves me ponder on the "what might have beens" and "what ifs"? I guess that is anything but normal for someone who is continuously trying to find happiness and contentment.

I can proudly say that I have been through a lot of struggles. There may be countless times that I wish to be in deep slumber that all my problems are gone the moment I open my eyes but I know that I don't have any choice but to face the hard reality.

I believe credit goes to my tolerance to pain which I feel is not as low as the others. I am lucky to have a tough exterior, too, despite my weak interior. I think a lot, just like everyone else. I also feel hopeless at times, hence, wishing to just sometimes evaporate or be in comatose until such a time that life becomes how I want it to be.

Love, friends, trust, and money are what I constantly ruminate on. These four (especially the first and the latter) are too obscure and broad for my tiny brain to handle sometimes. Love, for one thing, is very profound. With regard loving someone romantically, I get mix signals and I become attached to people so easily that I fail in the end. As far as friendship is concerned, on the other hand, I get to a point that I don't know anymore who the real ones are. Trust, meanwhile, is what I give without an inch of doubt but more often than not backfires on me. Then, money, is what I always aim to have to enjoy life and henceforth forget about the first three main points of why I think a lot. But then again, who said that life is fair?

I may not have all the pleasures in life... I may be trying to withstand all the obstacles and may even fall most of the time... I may have a not so strong personality and not too much to offer, but I know that there's a reason for everything that I will continue on trying to uncover.

A new morning, a new life, a new beginning. :)

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